another interesting weekend passed by

alot happened on this weekend.

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contd at "Why just me? Why not Everyone?" : I

Innocence is bliss !!!

Sometimes i think that what would it have been like if we, the humans weren't social, had not advanced so much or were not so intelligent. Wouldn't we be enjoying our life like a zebra or a rhino is woods. It would have been better for other species as well.

want to be in school again

yesterday shashi, sharaf and me had a long midnight chat. talks mainly revolved around how the things have changed in the last few years and a generation gap has developed between us and our siblings a few years younger.

it's true.. these kids as small as 8-10 yrs talk of girlfriends/boyfriends while in our days, we were just unaware of the concept or too shy to talk about these.. this time when i went home (to my native place) there was a small get-together and we all cousins met except gaurav (who..<snip>..</snip>). there were too many stories to be shared. i was simply amazed and felt to be out of place. there's really some big revolution undergoing in indian children nowadays. i proly missed the fun. i can't accept it. i also wish to have the same fun. i want to be in school again.

Had a cool weekend

had a cool weekend after don'tknowhowlong in bangalore. it all started with a dinner at office on fri. went home and found sharaf having his dinner; his fav chick biryani from tandoori corner. sharaf and thiyagesh are in a job-hunting mood nowadays (did i tell u that the search is strictly not in india job and even states is not a preferred destination). And when it's job-search i automatically get lured into it. In such a scenario the discussion moved on to the lazy countryside life in europe. we dreamt of having a windmill rite outside our house, a rickety automobile, evenings in the local country bar, a pistol and a horse jut like a cowboy...

i also talked about my plans for the next few months.. joining a gym, getting a gal and also joining a tae-kwon-do class. sharaf was more inclined to join a karate class. i gave the responsibility of searching for the tae-kwon-do class. also talked a bit about A. A is a cute boyish-like gal i met sometime back. was(am) interested in her.. even flirted but probably it's all past now.

Next day ie saturday woke-up at around 10 thought of about the day. called rajan mama, got a switched off message. I had recently known that he has shifted to bangalore and is residing in yelahanka. went to sleep again. after unsuccessfully trying to sleep for half-an-hour i again tried calling rajan mama and got thru and in the next moment i decided to be at their place. But it couldn't be that quick as i had just left the bed. i reached their place a bit before 2pm. mama kept on calling me now-and-then just to ensure that i was on the right path. had good time with children there. decided to go there whenever i get time.

when i came back home it was again the same europe/oz thing going on..

Don't Know Why

yesterday i came to office after a loong vacation (real long, left bangalore on 20th oct). But found myself to be project-less. Sounds music to ears but believe me it's more fun to have work and not do it than not to have work. I realized that to chat when u have loads of work is more fun than when u are really, officially free.

I started thinking about how should i utilize this huge amount of time and again found myself to be at the same ole place. NOTHING. I felt that i've really lost all my interests and the only thing that i still love to do is to sleep and mebbe will love making love as well ;-) (if it ever happens to me). I was stuck again at the same place where i've been for atleast a year. I don't know why should i keep living or even why should i die? Neither a reason to live nor one to die. No reason to do anything.

twas getting too pessimistic therefore i thought that i'll try all those things that i've never done true-heartedly. writing one amongst them. therefore this blog. May also flirt with other activities as well or mebbe girls ;-) (but where the hell are they?????)